It’s been awhile.
I know I’m not the only one who has done it.
Years ago it was popcorn. Cheap, filling and tasty.
My original plan was to blog today about a great veggie recipe I recently discovered and made twice so far. It’s delicious, easy, filling, economical and nutritious. Yay! A win all the way around! Then I had a conversation and things changed.
A dear friend with a heart of gold and passion for connecting with people asked me this afternoon what many people ask each other: “How are you?”. Of course I quickly replied, “Good! I’m good.” Which I actually was, on the surface. In the grand scheme of things, everything is good. Health is good. Work is good. Home is good. Family is good. Yep, good, good, good, good.
I’m not sure what this person saw but I know they have a knack for digging deeper. Not because they’re trying to mess with you, but because when they ask “How are you?” They truly want to know. We started talking about kids and came to the part about my husband and I stepping into the zone of “empty nesters”. My children are in college and although we keep in touch a lot, it’s ‘different’.
I knew it was coming. The days when Legos are packed up; piles of artwork on the counter put away; requests for tuck-ins stowed away in my mind’s drawer of precious memories. I knew someday the carpooling, packed calendar days, and laundry all over the floor would be ‘things of the past’, as they say.
Those days are now.
We spend less at the grocery store. I hardly have any laundry. My house is clean, tidy and quiet. (For those of you wanting to throw things at me right now, I’m sorry! I understand!) And it’s quiet. Too, too quiet.
I miss it all. A lot. Honestly I feel a bit lost and distracted. And then I feel sad. And because another friend knew they were my favorites and gave me some, I had original Good Humor Toasted Almond ice cream for dinner. They were saved in my freezer for someday when I needed it. Today was that day.
Comfort eating is not good for you. I know this and fight it when I feel sad. But some days…
So today it was ice cream for dinner. Tomorrow brings a fresh start to another day and I will eat better tomorrow. “Weeping may last through the night but joy comes in the morning.” Psalm 30:5. No worries. God’s grace provides the ‘do-over’ and I’ll try again.
I promise to make that healthy blog post next time!